
Her presence triggers me.
It cuts deep.
Memories flooding
that old ache
I keep convincing myself
has finally gone quiet.
Then she walks into the room
and suddenly
I am every age
I have ever been.
She is my home.
My safe place.
My refuge from the storm.
She is also
the storm itself.
She is both
curse
and cure.
Burn
and balm.
How can one Woman
be the place
I run toward
and the place
I have spent
my life
trying to outrun?
This is the inheritance
of Mothers and Daughters.
We are stitched together
long before
either of us
learns
how to speak.
Bound
by blood.
By bone.
By memory.
By the unspoken language
of Women
who carry one another’s
grief
inside their own bodies.
I see her.
Not just
the Mother.
The little girl
she buried
to become one.
I see
the fear
she swallowed.
The dreams
she folded away.
The love
she never learned
how to give
without it first
passing through
her own wounds.
And because I see her
I ache.
Not because
it excuses
what hurt me.
That she hurt me.
But because
love becomes
far more complicated
when you can trace
the wound
back through
the Women
who carried it
before either of you
were born.
People want
simple stories.
A villain.
A victim.
Someone to blame.
But life
rarely offers us
that simplicity.
Sometimes
the Woman
who broke you
is also
the Woman
who held you
when the rest
of the world did not.
Sometimes
the safest place
you’ve ever known
is also
where your deepest wounds
were first named.
This is the impossible
geometry
of Mothers
and Daughters.
The centuries-old question:
Who hurt whom more?
Mother?
Or child?
Perhaps
that is the wrong question.
Perhaps
the better one is:
Who was hurting first?
Who carried
a grief
so Ancient
it forgot
which generation
it belonged to?
I do not know
where she ends
and I begin.
Perhaps
that is the tragedy.
Perhaps
that is also
the miracle.
Because even
when I rage,
even
when I retreat,
even
when her presence
awakens every scar
I have fought
to heal
I still know
she is bound to me.
And I to her.
Not by obligation.
Not by guilt.
But by something
older than language.
Older than memory.
A cord
neither of us tied.
A love
neither of us
has always known
how to carry.
So I will not ask
who wounded whom more.
I will ask instead
How do we become
the first Women
in our bloodline
to love each other
without bleeding
quite so much?
