LESSONS FROM OUR WOMB: Menstruation, Menopause and Magick

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“Something inside her was made of moonflowers.”

Rune Lazuli

Women are amazing creatures (all people are but this is for my ladies).

Our bodies can bring life into being—that’s beyond profound.

Our lips cast spells of honey, healing words and hexes when you threaten what is ours; our hips are built to birth babies; our breasts are meant to feed our young and a comforting landing zone for their tired, sad heads when the world tries to tear them down; we are everything nature is.

Creative. Destructive. Powerful. Weak. Compassionate. Cruel. Beautiful. Ugly. Forgiving. Merciless.

We are a mix of wonderful paradoxes and Divine chaos.

For me, Witches epitomize what it means to be a Woman; in our society being a Woman automatically makes you inferior in many people’s eyes but when you are a Witch, you take back a lot of your power without even knowing it.

You see, the world hates strong Women.

So, yeah, we are more likely to be targeted by the weak and ignorant minded on a smaller scale but in the grand scheme we are generally left alone because there is no force as strong as a Woman who has stepped into her power. Many will choose to avoid us altogether rather than face us head on.

Of course, I am not suggesting that the *only* strong Women to exist are Witches, but I am saying that Women who are Witches are the strongest I know.

Women and the Moon have been connected since the beginning of time; it was the Moon who helped the first Women map their menses, and their Magick.

We are created to be cyclical; just like the ocean has an ebb and flow, so do we and just like the ocean, it is the Moon who rules ours.

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When I first started on the path I kind of just jumped right in and for me the Feminine aspect of myself, my Magick, and my Craft was not of huge importance; I just wanted knowledge.

When I began to evolve on my path I reached a point where I had to open the door to my Femininity, my Womanly essence; I had to find the root of my pain, and the root of my power so that I could tap into both; use one to heal the other.

So, I went searching.

If you have ever looked-for articles, books, or blogs written about Witches, the Moon and Menses, you will see that the search results are endless; literally, it’s an endless list of search results.

Sounds great, right?

Well, not really.

All these articles talked about us connecting to our Wombs, how important our menstrual blood is, and how we should map our PMS with our Magick, and emotions, which is all true.

But, what about those of us Women who are Witches that don’t have a womb?

The ones who don’t bleed?

Where are we represented, not even that but where are we to look for answers about our bodies and how they relate to and reflect Mother back upon us when everything we read is telling us we are not fully a Woman because we have a womb space, instead of an actual womb?

I had a full hysterectomy as many of you know—I write about it all the time because I want people to understand my story.

There are Sisters who are Transgender, and thus biologically they cannot bleed. I believe that Transgender Women have a womb space that is like a collective consciousness; I have a womb space that is a void of sorts, a place where my womb once stood, residual power that can still be tapped into; then there are Women fully in-tact with their womb in place.

Womb or not, we are all powerful creatures.

We are all deserving of our Magick.

We are all beautiful definitions of the Divine Feminine.

There are Women who are post-menopausal, which usually happens in our Crone years but can in a lot of cases happen sooner—known as Early Onset, or Premature Menopause.

Drawing from Crone power and wisdom, along with feeling a disconnect from my womb were huge hurdles for me to overcome.

I eventually accepted that my Magick took a turn towards the Crone’s wisdom and grayness once I hit menopause because that is what I needed at that time, which helps validate my “we are cyclical” theory.

It also led me to the lesson that I believe we can tap into Maiden, Mother and Crone energy throughout our entire lives; for me they are not just age ranges, they are feelings, thoughts, emotions, learning experiences, etc.

What life requires from us is what energy we will and should draw from.

Menstruation has long been thought of as gross, taboo and something that shouldn’t be discussed; as a Women’s Rights Activist, Feminist and someone who promotes Wild Woman Spirituality, it makes my heart sing that we are beginning to break down the barriers of misunderstanding and blood that have divided us for too long.

Our bleeding is necessary for life.

That is the furthest from “gross” I can think of.

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But, while we are breaking down barriers and progressively moving forward it’s important to understand that our community is not one size fits all; we do not all fit into one box and there should be representations, and voices that everyone can relate to.

I know what it means to bleed, have it taken away, not bleed, and then be thrust into menopause, at 27 mind you.

The entire experience has made me a stronger person, a better Witch and a more compassionate Woman.

We are amazing, cyclical creatures that are guided by the Moon; our menses and madness follow it’s phases.

Blessed Are the Witches.

LESSONS IN MAGICK: Willpower and Intuition

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“Don’t try to comprehend with your mind. Your minds are very limited. Use your intuition.”

Madeleine L’Engle

For the Magickally inclined Will and intuition are two paramount concepts on our path; these are not divided into RHP and LHP, they are simply part of being a Witch, and/or Occultist. When people think of Will, and Willpower in an esoteric context they immediately think of Thelema and Crowley: “Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law. Love is the law, love under will.”

But, what people don’t think too much about is how our Will translates and correlates to other areas of Magick, and life.

Essentially, our Will is part strength and part (embodied) intentions.

Our Willpower is what motivates us, fuels us, and drives us towards our goals.

Desire and lust exist in the shallow, mundane areas of our Willpower; when we begin to go deeper, and silence the chatter of the world we can hear our true Will speaking loud and clear, revealing to us secrets long forgotten and intentions waiting to come to fruition.

Willpower is endless, and limitless; only limited by how far we are willing to dive, and how hard we are willing to fight.

In the beginning of September, I read an article on WITCH about ways to strengthen Will, and use it to manifest greatness, and momentous changes into our lives.

The Author goes into great detail about how self-talk affects us and what we manifest into our lives; the difference between saying “I will” and “I am going to” are profound, and something I would not have thought of without reading their words.

It really got me thinking though; the Author goes on to state that our Will becomes stronger the more times we follow through with our word.

Your Will/stating your Will is like a promise to yourself and the Universe; when you keep that promise, it solidifies the bond and brings back to you that which you put out (think Law of Attraction).

This is how intuition works, too–

When we listen to it, and follow its advice, it becomes stronger, our connection to it becomes stronger; we become stronger.

When we ignore our intuition we feel defeated, detached and unable to decipher between anxiety and intuition based warning signs.

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Questions about how to strengthen intuition are probably some of the most common that come into my inbox, and while the answer may vary person to person based on their situation, it’s also kind of the same: listen to your gut, and don’t be scared to fuck up.

There will be times that you “listen to your gut” and it will be wrong, your gut will be wrong.

You will be wrong.

“Does this mean my intuition is broken?”

No, it means your intuition needs to be calibrated and exercised; it’s a gift we *all* have but like all gifts, those who work with and work on it the most, will see the most reward and benefit.

To this day I have moments where I listen to my intuition and it’s wrong, but I take the lesson and learn from it. I ask myself was I anxious? Was I scared? Was I simply making excuses? Was I picking up on some other energy that made me not follow through with (insert task/scenario here)?

Then there are moments where I ignore my intuition altogether; I talk about those moments all the time.

Living with anxiety, being extremely Empathic and having insecurities makes it hard for me to listen to my intuition all the time; self-doubt is a demon we all share.

Sometimes I am simply naïve, other times I am giving people the benefit of the doubt when they don’t deserve it.

There have been many times that ignoring the waves in my chest and literal feeling in my gut have burned me. I accept those moments, and own them.

You should, too.

And, you can’t fear them.

You will fuck up; which is pretty much the only true guarantee on this path.

How you handle the fuck ups determines the trajectory on your path.

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Then on some random day for some random reason you get that feeling in the pit of your stomach, and ignore the chatter in your brain and tune in to listen; you hear a faint whisper, a gust of wind that turns into a howl and scream; this is the day your intuition comes through for you, this is the day you step into your power.

This is the day you punch your self-doubt in the throat and become stronger than it ever was.

This is a day you will never forget.

Just like our Willpower, our intuition is limitless, endless and abysmal with its lessons of wisdom, we must be willing to tap into it and overcome the fear of being wrong, and failing occasionally.

For there are lessons to be had in every wrong and failure we encounter; Willpower and intuition are the greatest teachers.

Learn to trust them more than you doubt them, and you have the keys to Magick.

LESSONS IN MAGICK: Invocation, Evocation and Channeling

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“It is only by working the rituals, that any significant degree of understanding can develop. If you wait until you are positive you understand all aspects of the ceremony before beginning to work, you will never begin to work.”

Lon Milo DuQuette

This blog is in response to a question posed by a fellow Witch: “Do you have any tips, advice, knowledge or resources for invocation and evocation? I learned tonight that I am a channel and want to dive into developing this gift.”

From my stance, there are three topics to be addressed; channeling, evocation and invocation.

Each of these topics separately is deep and advanced on their own so I am merely going to skim the surface, give some basics, my opinion on the whole matter and allow discussions to come from that.

At another time, I will go into further detail of each practice on its own.

I must first put this disclaimer out there like I always do when giving advice: I am no expert, I don’t claim to be, either.

My way is not the only way, and there is no right way (though there are some wrong ones).

If you read what I write here and it resonates, awesome; if not, that’s cool, too.

If you want to tweak it to make it your own, do so.

We are individuals, and thus our Magick and workings will be and should be, too.

This is not a pissing contest of who knows more, and who practices what and how; use this blog, if nothing else, as a learning tool and glimpse into how I view the inner workings of Occult practice.

I have steered away from these types of blogs over the last 18 months; when I first started out, I would discuss my philosophy and personal Magickal experiences in depth. When people began to attack me though (both Magickally, and verbally for what I spoke about) I withdrew from sharing so much.

Slowly I am starting to open up once again, mostly because I don’t give a fuck about the opinions of the peanut gallery anymore but also because being thrust into this position has caused me, forced me, to grow a thick skin.

In my opinion, there needs to be a space like my blog and page, and others like it, that allow people an opportunity to learn, ask questions without judgment, and advance as a practitioner while advancing as a person.

I learn something new from my readership every single day; I hope to return the favor, tenfold.

I do not view these topics in a traditional sense, I am just throwing that out there now.

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Invocation: This is the act of inviting through ritual a deity, energy or Spirit into your body and Soul; in most cases this is to obtain power, or specific Gnosis.

Evocation: This is the act of bringing forth an aspect of yourself, a deity, energy or Spirit (think summoning) to assist you in Magickal workings, healing, hexing, or other forms of ritual.

Channel: To be a Channel is the idea that you are a vessel to the Spirit world, this does not necessarily or automatically make you psychic, or a medium, it just means that for whatever reason Spirit can send (and in many cases, receive) messages through you.

For example, in Vodou it is considered a blessing to become possessed by a Spirit; these Witches are (considered by many) touched by God.

The concept of being a channel or vessel is seen across all cultures, and traditions; varying only slightly.

After the Crusades, however, anyone who showed this gift was automatically considered “insane” or suffering from “hysteria” and thus the intertwining of Magick and Mental Illness began; the two have been associated ever since (and before, as shown by history, but the numbers took off at the beginning of the 14th Century).

A Channel does not usually have any control over their body when Spirit decides to take over, and unlike a Seer or Psychic, they do not have the ability to communicate with Spirits; their individual consciousness is not present. The Spirit layers (for lack of a better term) themselves over the body and Soul of the Channel/Vessel, causing the person’s consciousness to fall back.

Now that the definitions are out of the way, let me go on to make a few points.

Being a Channel has nothing to do with Invocation or Evocation.

One is a natural gift and the other two are practices.

Make sense?

If you are a Channel, there is not much you can do in the way of honing your gift because, as you are aware, you do not have control. I have had one seizure from a Spirit possession, and a few bumps and bruises but nothing else overly severe.

Through the years I have learned the signs to look for within myself when a Spirit wishes to possess and rip me open as their Channel.

I notice changes in Aura, a high-pitched deafening ringing in both ears followed by utter *silence* and my vision becomes almost tunneled. I have been thoroughly checked out by medical professionals; if you experience any of these symptoms suddenly, please see a Doctor. You must rule out anything mundane before jumping to the Magickal conclusion.

The entire process is grueling and trying on the body which is why meditation is a must.

Your mind is your most powerful tool, weapon and ally but it is a weapon that can be used against you; meditation allows us to understand our weapon and become one with it.

Meditation is a practice a lot of people “can’t do”, so they give up.

Thing is, they *are* doing it, they just don’t think they are.

Meditation is not always about silencing the mind, sometimes it is about learning to listen through the chaos. I encourage people to let their mind’s wonder, let their thoughts drift, don’t silence the chatter, put your ear closer and listen!

When silence is meant for you, you will find it.

Stillness is not always the end goal; for even in stillness there is motion, even in calm there is chaos.

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As far as Invocation goes, I do not incorporate that as part of my Magickal workings.

I know that many, many fellow practitioners do not and will not agree with me, and that’s fine; it goes back to the whole “we are individuals” thing.

I respect you, and you respect me.

The most influential mentor I ever had the privilege of working with told me that there “should never come a time when I need to hand over my body and Soul to a Spirit or deity to reap the benefits of their Gnosis”.

His words have stuck with me ever since.

Plus, I believe all the power we ever need is already inside of us just waiting to be tapped into.

We are Gods in our own right; Creators and Destroyers.

Monsters among men.

I do not judge others for wanting to practice Invocation Magick, to each their own. I just urge everyone to fully understand what they are doing and make sure their intentions are clear.

You should not jump into Invocation, it should be a practice that you build up to.

Evocation is a topic I have taken on before in a blog, I regularly include this form of ritual into my Magickal workings.

I enjoy, honor and cherish my connections to Spirits and the Spirit world in general; I am forever in awe of the knowledge and power possessed by Spirits and Daemons I work with and their graciousness to share that knowledge and power with me.

Magick is as vast and deep as the Great Void itself, the opportunities to learn, grow, and evolve are endless.

LESSONS IN MAGICK: Spiritual Elitism

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“Feelings of superiority always stem from an illusion.”

Marty Rubin

Narcissism seems to be everywhere lately and so it only makes sense that it has found its way into the Spiritual world.

I like to address issues that I see arise in our community because it’s a way to open dialogue and allow people the opportunity to grow, and change.

Isn’t that the point of our journeys anyways? To become better versions of ourselves?

How is that possible if we do not grow? If we do not face all facets of our being?

Everybody has an ego, and the ones who deny theirs are the ones I trust the least.

I prefer someone so in touch with their ego that they come off as a narcissistic, passive aggressive douchebag than deal with someone who says they have no ego at all.

And, the irony of this is that for a long, long time I was afraid to feed my own ego and so I would deny its existence in a sense; I knew it was there, I knew I had one, I just preferred to avoid that part of my Soul.

It bit me in the ass.

Hard.

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Our ego must be fed to be kept in line; it cannot be denied, and it cannot be overindulged.

I believe, personally, when we are talking about ego, it epitomizes the term “everything in moderation”.

Ego must be dosed out in moderation, and in desperate times only; especially for Spiritual people because overfeeding our ego can lead to a variety of unsavory traits, the most notorious being Spiritual Elitism.

Spiritual Elitism is the idea that your Spiritual Philosophy and experience(s) make you more enlightened than your counterparts. Spiritual Elitists (SE’s for this article) believe that they are better than another person because they know more, have studied more, have seen more, etc.

Therefore, we have so many fake gurus out there; they are nothing more narcissists in disguise.

Every single person who jumps on this path for purposes of Ego will get caught, it’s inevitable.

In general, anyone who jumps on this path for the wrong reasons will get caught; either by the community itself, or by the Spirits.

You can’t proclaim enlightenment while also proclaiming that you are better than another person, or another path.

I have openly cracked jokes about Wicca being the Christianity of Witchcraft (I believe it to be true still) but I don’t think I am better than Wiccans.

I have openly talked about my disdain for Christianity, and religion, but I don’t think I am better than followers of Christ; or those who need religion in their life.

I approach everyone as if we are on equal playing ground.

I know, I know, I can hear the gasps now.

“Not everyone deserves to be treated like we play on the same field and at the same level!”

“They have to earn my respect!”

And on, and on, and on, and on…

I treat everyone as an equal for four reasons: people will surprise you, people will let you down, people have endless potential and, it’s the right fucking thing to do.

We live in a world that divides and defines us, I prefer to give people more than that when I interact with them on a personal level.

I want people to know that they are seen, that they are more than those labels slapped on them.

SE’s are all about the labels, too. That’s what makes them stand out the most; they thrive off being different than others.

They are the ones who even among fellow weirdos, misfits and Star-children are the “rarest, most special” and usually claim to have a direct connection to a deity that no one else can have connection with; often, said deity is one who is worshiped by millions across the world, and so, it makes it all the more unbelievable but easier to detect.

Now, for clarity I want to say that I have connection to deities but I do not believe I am the only one, I do not believe I am special because of those connections; I believe I am in tune.

And, I am in tune because I have worked my ass off to find that frequency.

As for labels, I use them but I don’t believe they make me special—they help people understand.

I like to know how people identify themselves because it helps me understand, I just don’t limit them to those definitions; they should not limit me to mine, either.

There is a way to be enlightened, and live a fully Spiritual life without having some elitist complex that makes you live under the impression you are somehow better than another person.

I feel like, even for those of us who walk the LHP, that is the exact opposite of what our end goal is.

We are not here to be better than anyone else, we are here to be better than the previous version of ourselves.

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As I have said many times in the past, I stumbled into this role of being a mentor, and teacher but I have slowly learned to embrace it.

People ache for connection, and to have someone they can run things by regarding Magick, ritual, dreams, experiences, etc.

If I can be that person, cool; if the page I have created can be that refuge, even better.

If people become better versions of themselves because of the topics brought up, the goal has been met.

I don’t need or want followers, I don’t need or want people to worship me or bow at my feet, I don’t need or want to be applauded or pat on the back, I don’t need or want to be praised for how (insert butt kissing compliment here) I am:

I want people to step onto the path to find their truth, open the door, light their fire, and burn in it.

We must become the torches in times of darkness.

RANTINGS OF A MAD WITCH: Darkness is Not a Trend

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“Yet, no matter how deeply I go down into myself, my God is dark, and like a webbing made of a hundred roots that drink in silence.”

Rainer Maria Rilke

I am going to say up front that I don’t believe this essay will be well received by everyone but, when are they ever?

If something I say here offends you then I urge and plead you to ask yourself, “why am I offended?”

Your reaction has everything to do with you, and nothing to do with me or my words on this screen.

As with most of my pieces, this has been bouncing around in my head for quite some time; I have had wonderful, deep conversations with friends about this ongoing trend I wish to address.

Having been a public figure (by that I mean writing/administrating pages and blogs on Social Media) for a little over 4 years now I am granted rare glimpses into people’s lives and Souls.

In this time, I have learned a lot, grown a lot, even died a few metaphorical deaths in there—it has been a thrill ride and initiation of sorts.

When I first started on Dear Wicked I used the admin handle ‘Noir’ (French word for the color black) and many people still call me that to this day; it is a spiritual name given to me and therefore very Sacred.

Being an admin (especially as NR continues to grow) affords me the pleasure of getting to know a lot of people that I otherwise wouldn’t cross paths with; in the beginning, I was met with a lot of backlash because I was “too dark” and “too harsh”—I get it, I have a strong presence and I don’t sugar coat anything, so people at first don’t like me.

Sometimes people never like me.

I am not here to be liked though; I am here to provoke thought.

I would/do talk about and/or post about topics and subject matter that made/make people uncomfortable and instead of standing in and owning their discomfort, they project their fears onto me.

The ban list on that page grew rather quickly as small insults from readers turned into them trying to sabotage my career, and use Magick against me. Ah, what fun.

It was a shit show when I first started, still is most days.

At that time, I started to use Social Media as a gauge for the current state of the world; seriously, if you are ever curious about the current energies that are in play, just pay attention to commentary and behavior on these Social platforms and you will notice the trends I do.

Our community was plagued with what we have all come to call fluff bunnies; I don’t intentionally mean this as a term of disrespect and I honestly believe all Witches have their place and purpose but the imagery I wish to convey is aptly described and formed when I use the term “fluff bunny”. So, chill, k?

I was personally bombarded by these morality police, light worker, new-age, threefold believers who wanted to fill me with love and light while beating me into submission.

I come from darkness and was forged by flames, I will submit to no one.

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As for love and light, they have their purpose and place in the grand scheme of things but it is not with me, or within me.

My love, and my light come from a place of darkness. Read that line again.

In the last 2 years or so many of these same Witches have “come to the dark side” and how fucking ironic is that?

How ironic is it to see people who would outright deny their darkness now talk about embracing their Shadow and doing Shadow work?

How hypocritical that they are talking about these topics without ever having faced their Shadow?

I am just going to say this:

DARKNESS IS NOT A TREND.

DARKNESS IS NOT A TREND.

DARKNESS IS NOT A TREND.

I understand that people evolve and paths change, and that is not what I am talking about here; I am talking about the people within our community who could not handle being called out on their judgmental light bullshit, so they switched sides and now want to claim the dark.

Witches, Occultists, Mystics—hell, people in general should strive for duality BUT there are some of us who lean towards one side over the other and *THAT IS OKAY*.

It’s okay to carry light and dark; it’s okay to carry just darkness; it’s okay to carry just light;

It is not okay to pretend to be something you are not because you don’t want to face the ridicule anymore; with truth comes ridicule, and the truer you are to yourself, the more authentic your life becomes, the more you will be outcast.

I am ridiculed for being too dark, not being balanced, and pretty much just for breathing most days but I stand in my truth, I burn in my truth, I stand on top of this crumbling world and shout my truth for all to hear.

No one can ever say that I have not been dedicated and true to myself, my path, or my Craft.

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That is the key here: we must be true to our Craft and to ourselves otherwise everything we do is a lie and Magick is no place for liars.

If you claim the dark out of fear, or wanting to “be cool” the darkness in turn will claim you and, that is something you never want to experience.

Let people talk, let people stare, let people misunderstand you, let them draw their conclusions, and make their judgments; their words should have no effect on you.

And remember, to thy own self be true.

 

 

 

LESSONS IN MAGICK: Cleansing and Cord Cutting

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“You have to find that place that brings out the human in you. The soul in you. The love in you.”

r.m drake

In my recent article for WITCH I discussed how important self-care is to any practitioner of Magick, and/or energy worker; I think it’s because we get so caught up in our work that we often get lost in the mix of things, and forget to take care of “home” which in turn can have monumental, if not negative effects on us—mind, body and Soul.

I left out of the article one of the most important aspects of self-care which is: cleansing and cord cutting.

Now, I am not discussing cords or hooks that have be placed in our aura by another person with intention (Magick attack, Vamp, and/or Hex, etc.—though some of these methods will work in those cases).

I am focusing on the day to day debris we pick up just from going about our daily lives, and practicing Magick and energy work.

Admittedly this essay was partially inspired by Aidan Wachter’s video where he discusses his own simple, yet effective means of cord cutting; describing the energy as “luminous fibers” it really resonated and reminded me how important it is to remove negative energy *daily*.

I have discussed some of these forthcoming methods in my previous blogs about Protection and Grounding; apologies now if anything sounds repetitive but this is important stuff!

As always, my rule of thumb when it comes to Magick is keep it simple; cleansing and cord cutting are no different.

What do I mean when I say cleansing and cord cutting?

Well, I mean just that—cleansing our auric field, chakras, physical and Spiritual bodies of psychic debris that is not serving our Higher Self.

The cords are not usually malice in nature, and are formed without intention but for the Magickally inclined it can really hinder our work, focus and life force (power).

Especially because most of us are Empaths and/or Clairsentients.

I say the cords are not usually malice in nature because I want to reinforce the idea that Magickal attacks are not common—they are not unheard of but they are not common because it takes a lot of energy out of the Practitioner.

Not to mention that with experience comes wisdom and as we grow with Magick we learn there are ways to affect (dare I say harm) someone other than going all out for a hex, curse, crossing or jinx.

To be crystal clear, I am *not above* doing any of those things, and have no shame admitting that I hex and heal equally.

As I believe all Witches should.

Now that all the disclaimers and explanations are out of the way, let’s get to it.

Before putting these methods into practice be sure to set intentions on what you want to accomplish.

For example, “I cut away and remove all negative energy and intentions that are no longer serving me and my Higher Self; I remove all blockages, and unhealthy thought patterns. I am grounded, and protected; I am strong, and I am fierce.”

I have learned that by setting intentions, and ending with affirmations it helps me feel more focused and empowered; as with everything you may tweak this, and all suggestions given by myself to your liking, and situation.

Another thing, I am all about ambiance when it comes to ritual but you do not have to set up a Sacred Space for any of the methods I am giving to work; the point of them is that they are meant to be quick, and simple so that they can be accomplished daily by the average person who, like me, runs around like a chicken with their head cut off trying to “get shit done”.

Is it just me or does the to-do list once started never stop growing?

Anyways…

I like to set up my space with ambient music, or nature sounds; rain sounds are perfect because they not only have a calming but cleansing effect on us—the same as if we were walking outside in the rain, or next to a moving stream.

I also like to have a candle or two lit, maybe an incense burning, or essential oils in my diffuser.

Remember, this is all about self-care and that requires pampering yourself; so give yourself the permission to do that. Please.

Crystal Cleansing: When I am talking about cord cutting my go to crystal is Obsidian, particularly an Obsidian blade. Not only is this crystal (volcanic glass) associated with our Root Chakra, which automatically grounds and protects, because it is a glass formation it is perfect for slicing through cords, and attachments. This is one of the crystals I suggest to people after a break-up as well.

To cut cords using an Obsidian Blade (or any blade for that matter) I like to stand in Mountain Pose (feet hip width apart, arms at your side, knees locked and strong—body relaxed) because this pose is all about stability, and standing in your power.

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I set my intentions, and starting at my Crown Chakra on the right side I glide the blade around my body—about an inch or so away from my skin, working all the way down to my feet, and back up the left side of my body.

Don’t forget to lift your feet and cleanse the soles, and don’t forget the palms of your hands, and your back (people always forget their back)!

Other good crystals for cleansing and cord cutting are Selenite, Black Tourmaline, Quartz Crystals (including but not limited to Smoky Quartz, Amethyst, and Citrine), Kyanite, Fluorite, Calcite, and Garnet.

Herbal Smoke Baths: This method was mentioned in my WITCH article but I can’t stress this enough.

What I have grown to love about plants is not just that they have their own personality, and Spirit’s but they all seem to have the ability to harm, or hurt—I understand and relate to this aspect of duality the most.

Even the most benign plant ally, if taken in the wrong dose can hurt us; goes back to the adage, everything in moderation.

Luckily for us, smoke baths do not require ingestion.

I like to use combination herbs, and for that I use my cast iron mini caldron; White Sage, Red Rose petals, Lavender, Red Sandalwood and Solomon Seal Root are currently being burned for calming, cleansing, and Spirit Conjure.

You may use a traditional Smudge Stick, or Spirit Stick, light it, and set it inside an abalone shell (adding an element of water to the cleansing) and doing meditation (active or still) while allowing the smoke to cleanse your aura.

There are plenty of ways to make this method your own—let the plant do the work, and you guide its energy.

Spiritual Baths and/or Showers: This is super important and super easy. When people think of Spiritual Baths they think of Vodou, and/or Hoodoo, because both traditions are heavily influenced by the power of water and have essentially conjured (pun totally intended) some of the best washes for the Modern Witch to use!

Florida Water Soap, for example, is perfect before, or after ritual to help cleanse you of any leftover debris, or residual energy. One of the good things about the homemade soap market being so vast now is that you can pretty much find a soap infused with any herb, oil, crystal and intention (most being vegan and organic, too).

One of my methods for cleansing and cord cutting is simple and done by adding salt to my shower or bath; Epsom salts or Pink Himalayan salt, preferably.

Another method is to pour Moon Water, or Rose Water over my head with the intent to cleanse my Chakras of negativity starting at the Crown, washing off my body and down the drain.

Afterwards, I cleanse my shower with Florida Water, or another batch or Moon Water.

A mixture of equal parts Hydrogen Peroxide and Water with 20 drops of Peppermint oil is another great effective cleaner because it adds the properties of Peppermint; mint in the home is protective.

Other associations include: cleansing, consecration, dreams, happiness, healing, love, money, passion, prosperity, psychic development, purification, release, renewal, rest, and sleep.

My home smells like a candy cane all the time because of this.

Spring Cleaning ALL YEAR ROUND: I can hear it now, “what did she just say?!”

I know, I know, nobody likes Spring cleaning but it’s part of life.

It should be part of our Magick, too.

It seems though, that when cleansing or clearing negative energy people often forget to deep clean their home; I don’t mean just a smudging, I mean *cleaning* your home.

I take down, clean, move, and re-assemble my altars every other month, though recently it has become monthly.

I also cleanse doorways, and windowsills with Florida Water or the Peppermint mixture mentioned above as part of my regular cleaning routine.

Spraying Moon Water, or Florida Water in corners will help disperse any stagnant energy; Florida Water on its own is a master cleaner, great for floors, cabinets, countertops, tiles, and bathtubs. Plus, it smells AMAZING.

Our homes are an extension of ourselves, and we should be mindful that they are kept in the best working condition; just as we take care of our body, and what we allow inside—we, too should be aware of what we allow into our homes.

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We must take care of our Temples.

These simple but effective methods should be part of any Modern Mystic’s daily regime.

We are not only energy workers, we are energy sources, and we need to be cognizant of the energy we put out and take in.

No one is suggesting that we must be all love and light, but we should free ourselves of toxic psychic debris so that we can be the best version of ourselves;

So, we can be the best Magickian we can be.

The Great Teacher: Lessons from Water

 

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Image: Ilse Moore

“Always be like a water. Float in the times of pain or dance like waves along the wind which touches its surface.”

Santosh Kalwar

Some days I just want to scream, “I am not as strong as you think I am!”

Or, perhaps I want to scream, “I am stronger than I think I am!”

Regardless of perspective, some days my heaviness, my darkness weighs me down, too.

There are days where my depth is too much for even myself to swim, and I just want to retreat to the shallows where I can lick my wounds, and catch my breath.

The problem with that is, I don’t know how to exist in the shallows of life, love, Magick, any of it; I only know depth.

And, the lessons from water don’t follow my rules, or what I find comfortable.

Water holds no prejudice, it does not ask permission, water just does; water pushes its way through whatever obstacle it encounters with gentle or great force because water always gets what it wants.

It’s on these difficult days when the waves keep coming that people around me seem to need me the most, leaving me alone to struggle, claw and fight my way out of the Abyss after taking on their baggage—because it’s what I do.

It’s what people like myself do.

We seek to understand.

Clawing my way back from the Abyss is not anything new for me, in fact I do it for fun sometimes; yes, you read that right. I think a lot can be learned by plummeting into our psyche, and the collective unconscious—it is only through feeling the suffering first hand can we understand the suffering.

I swear, as the days go by Buddhism makes more and more sense.

Understanding doesn’t mean we no longer experience it; simply means we experience it in diverse ways.

Pain and emotion, like everything else, have levels and evolves with us.

Today is one of those days where the weight of my world is crushing me.

I tried to channel this insanely chaotic energy into housework, cleaning my Sacred Space, yoga and grounding; not even my long shower helped calm the storm, and that always works.

I can’t make new things for the Shop because I don’t want this negativity to go into my work.

I can’t transmute the energy and absorb it yet because I am still trying to understand and heal (a point maybe only other Vamps and/or energy workers will relate to).

Now in a last-ditch effort, I am letting music take me away and turning to words for assistance.

There was a family emergency this morning, on top of it being my late Grandfather’s birthday today; he always comes through the strongest on this day, and the sadness I feel is gut-wrenching. There is still so much regret that surrounds his and my grandmother’s passing. Lessons of their own, I suppose.

Transformation is never easy, evolution is never easy but this, this is next level craziness.

The Cancer New Moon on my Solar Return this year has caused the flood gates to open, and gratitude overflows with those raging waters for the blessings coming my way but it doesn’t make the current any easier to navigate; let alone keep my head above it.

Because with every blessing comes its curse.

There is a Full Moon coming up on July 8th in my rising sign of Capricorn.

You guys know me, you know how much the Moon affects me—I am a triple Cancer for God’s sake.

To make the point of abysmal, watery depths clearer, Neptune is in Retrograde, and a primary ruler of mine.

Saying that I am drowning would be the understatement of all understatements.

But, just like every other time the Abyss has attempted to swallow me whole I become a hurricane, destroy myself and RISE.

To read more about the upcoming ‘Icebreaker’ Full Moon in Capricorn:

http://darkstarastrology.com/full-moon-july-2017/

Lessons in Magick: To Thy Own Self Be True

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Image: Alessio Albi

 

“All great and precious things are lonely.”

John Steinbeck

When talking to fellow Left Hand Path practitioners, and any Mystic or Witch really, the reoccurring theme is the immense amount of loss that we all experience.

Whether it comes in the form of trauma, loss of relationships (familial/social/professional), or simply losing our old Self so that we may be born anew—there is a tremendous amount of destruction and metaphorical death on this path that we walk.

It usually starts out with the death of our old Self; obviously this is something that never really stops once it starts because self-evolution is eternal, but this death is the first catalyst.

This is the time that we begin to wake up to the illusions of this world, start to question what we have been told, and seek out the truth with a veracious appetite.

We begin to feel more and more out of place, and the Soul calling for something, some place beyond this one becomes louder, and louder.

This is where the descent down the rabbit hole begins.

Slowly we start to have less, and less in common with people who we may have otherwise considered friends, or people we had common interests with; it’s usually the casual relationships that go first, they seem easiest to cut when our frequency begins to change.

After this, the destructive power of truth begins to hit closer and closer to home, and our immediate relationships are affected.

You will notice that your loved ones start commenting on how different you are or how distant you are; ideally, they will be accepting of your awakening but often times this simply isn’t the case.

It’s hard to describe to people who don’t crave truth what it tastes like.

It’s hard to describe to people that find it easy to conform what it means to rebel.

The majority would prefer to go on living in their false sense of comfort than dare step into the unknown and THAT is why we are so misunderstood, so feared, so envied, even: we are willing to step into the darkness to become the light.

This path is about self-discovery and that means a lot of solitude, and yes, loneliness; a word and emotion people fear so much but there are so many amazing lessons to be found in this place of desolation.

To be confident alone we must drudge through the vulnerability of our loneliness and find the root causes of that loneliness; humans may be social creatures but we should be able to enjoy our own company without needing anyone.

When we enjoy ourselves, love ourselves, understand ourselves, we are more equipped to enjoy, love and understand others. I do not mean love ourselves unconditionally, either, because that is simply not realistic.

The biggest test for us is when we must put our truth into action and our words into motion with someone we love. We can’t talk this big talk about living and burning in our truth if we refuse to speak our truth when the time arises.

Recently I caught a friend lying, and plagiarizing work, so that decision was almost made for me.

But, there was another situation that arose and it was less clear on how I was to handle it.

I know full well that my truth is my own, and it’s not for anyone else but I also must honor my truth.

Even though I have been walking this path for many, many years now I am still cutting and losing people from my life. And, yes, I have lost a few friends in recent weeks; although their absence is felt, their presence is missed and I will always hold a place in my heart for them, there is simply no longer room in my life.

If a relationship is not feeding your Higher Self, if it is not stimulating your Soul, then let it go.

Life is too short to hold onto mediocre people who put in minimal effort, and expect maximum result.

You do not need to apologize for being true to yourself, your morals, your ethics, and your convictions because at the end of the day, all you have is yourself.

At the end of the day, it is only your reflection that will keep you company.

THE DARK MOTHER: Lessons from Lilith

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Image: Natalia Drepina

“I am the blood of the dragon. I must be strong. I must have fire in my eyes when I face them, not tears.”

George R.R. Martin

As I wrote in a recent blog I have been noticing a trend of the Dark Goddess calling to, and appearing for many people; it seems that as our world has plummeted into times of uncertainty and darkness, so has the collective conscious and unconscious; there to greet us is Mother.

We are in Her domain now.

At first, I was unsure how I felt about the Dark Goddess, in all Her forms, particularly Lilith, becoming trends—more and more I would see articles about firsthand experiences with Her; Witches and Mystics were finally opening up and telling their stories and sharing their lessons learned from the Dark Mother.

Conversely, I also saw a plethora of historical texts that vilify Her making the rounds, as well.

Is it at all shocking that a Woman who chose Her own path, showed strength and fought for individual sovereignty has been dragged through the mud?

Is it surprising that she is so misunderstood, and even those who choose to walk Her path are demonized, too?

What is it about this primordial energy that draws people in? Why are some terrified, and others fascinated? Why are people, especially (most importantly) Women finding resonance with Her?

What IS all the hype about?

Well, to put it bluntly, the world is full of angry Women, and the people who love them.

The days where the patriarchy rules, and Women are treated as second-class citizens are coming to an end; I know that it seems like it’s getting worse, and in some ways, it is—but it must get worse before it can get better.

There must be a catalyst; that catalyst must affect a lot of people so that the Revolution can gain momentum.

And, a Revolution is coming.

The Divine Feminine is taking Her power back.

The Divine Masculine is taking His power back.

We are taking our power back.

Monotheism, and the divisive tactics of “the system” are being destroyed—piece by piece, layer by layer.

So, what is She?

Who is She?

A Sex Goddess?

A Daemon?

A Sacred Whore?

A Monster?

A Mother?

A Succubus?

A Serpent?

She is all of this and so much more.

Lilith is everything that is wild and carnal within us.

She represents uninhibited sexual energy.

She is unapologetic rage.

She is the Womb of the Dragon—the spark of Creation.

She is the epitome of rebellion.

She is both apple and Serpent.

She is the Dark Mother who teaches us tough, hard lessons.

She is the personification of Shadow work.

She is every Woman.

And every Woman is Her.

The more Women and other groups of marginalized people are blatantly beaten into submission, the more power it gives to these Dark Divine Feminine energies, like Lilith.

These are the deities, and energies who refuse to accept oppression of any kind.

They are Dark Goddesses such as Hekate, Kali, Morrigan, Brigid, Hel, Baba Yaga, Aradia, Isis, Persephone, and Ereshkigal; they are rising from their dark abodes and daring us to jump into the Abyss.

Asking us to trust our senses as we navigate our way through darkness, the underworld and the unknown.

They are teaching us to fight, to have a warrior mentality, and to rely solely on Self.

The Dark Divine Feminine lives in all of us—regardless of gender but She is awakening rapidly inside of Women and THAT is the key.

When that Divine spark is ignited inside us, a door opens and there to meet us is our Magick; this is a huge reason why religion and monotheism are dying (I don’t necessarily think religion is the problem, as I have said in the past).

People are sick and tired of being told how to live, love and believe based on words written thousands of years ago that have no real-world application today. I would go so far as to argue that they never had any real-world application to begin with.

Lilith teaches us to submit to no one, to live on our terms, and to be free in our wildness.

She is not for the faint of heart and asks a lot of those who answer Her calls but, it’s worth it.

Every single moment spent in Her darkness is worth it.

Every single drop of blood, sweat, and tears have purpose.

So, if you can’t handle that, then ask yourself what are you doing on this path?

Articles for further study:

http://www.ancient-origins.net/myths-legends/lilith-ancient-demon-dark-deity-or-sex-goddess-005908

http://thegoddesscircle.net/dark-goddess-magick/

NEPTUNE RETROGRADE: Epiphanies from the Watery Deep

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Image: American Ghoul aka Daniel Vazquez

“If you think you can grasp me, think again:
my story flows in more than one direction
a delta springing from the riverbed
with its five fingers spread”

Adrienne Rich

The twelfth house, or the “house of the unconscious” is one of the most influential placements in my chart; reason being, I have Pisces in Neptune (its ruling house), a placement simply called, ‘Neptune in the twelfth house’.

I think as we approach this Neptune Retrograde it is important to know what sign your Neptune placement falls in so that you can better navigate the impending storm.

To find out your Neptune and the rest of your chart setup, click here.

The twelfth house is ruled by watery Pisces, and Neptune is its ruling planet–having the two together, playing off the other’s frequency can prove challenging.

To read more about this placement, click here.

There is a lot, A LOT of depth, chaos, even victim hood that comes with this set up in one’s chart. There also comes a need for creativity, freedom, and self-expression that the majority of people will *never* understand.

The article linked above says, “People with Neptune in the 12th House have an entire Universe within that they might even struggle to know and understand. Neptune is in its ruling house here, which can bring out both the best and the worst of the 12th House. The negative aspects of disassociation, projection, and self-victimization can run rampant. But, this can also be the most transcendental, inspirational 12th House planet of all. It does all depend on what the 12th House Neptune individual chooses to do with this energy. These people are highly gifted on psychic and creative levels. Their potential to heal and bless the world and themselves is enormous. But, their Neptune needs to be owned first.”

Salvador Dali shares this placement and says his infamous surrealist expressions came from his deep Neptune imagination; an imagination so vast, psychic abilities so deep that he claimed to have in utero memories. He was a Mystic, too, because that Neptune curiosity couldn’t keep him away from what is hidden; we seek what is hidden!

I relate to his creativity, desire to swim the depths of his mind but mostly I relate to his chaos–the chaos of this placement.

Neptune is entering Retrograde on Saturday and will remain that way until November 22nd–11/22, both Master Numbers.

Unlike Mercury Retrograde, Neptune is all about Self: losing yourself to find yourself.

As the Sage Goddess says, “this is all about deconstructing reality” then continues on:

“Currently, Neptune is in the sign of Pisces, its own sign, which magnifies and concentrates its inherent energy. Neptune retrograde, in the sign or domain of consciousness we call Pisces, wants us to slow down…maybe even stop. Pisces is not journeying – the journey belongs to Sagittarius. Pisces is being, letting everything come to you. Neptune is oneness and omnipresence. Its realms are unlimited by our reality structures. It represents cosmic water, or the cosmic womb, the Source of everything, which encompasses everything – the Great Light, Creative Force, Energy, or Spirit. Names mean nothing when everything is one.”

The abysmal depths of the cosmic womb are going to transform me–they’re going to transform us all.

This couldn’t come at a more perfect time, personally; I am going through a shedding process but also a learning process.

The lessons? Slowing down, vibrating higher and drawing boundaries.

I am in desperate need of a slower pace, and some more space.

There’s also, what seems to be, some sort of initiation going on; as if I have passed a test I didn’t know I was taking and now I’m on the home stretch and finally realize what’s going on and as soon as I cross the finish line oblivion, manifestation and the fruits of my labor await.

I find it poetic that on June 24th I celebrate my 33rd Solar Return (during a Super New Moon) in the sun sign of Cancer–a Master Number year for me during a Neptune Retrograde.

Not to mention: 2+4=6, 3+3=6, and the 6th month. And no I am not being corny and referencing 666 as some “Satanic number”.

Angel number 666 says, “that it is time to focus on your personal spirituality in order to balance and heal any issues in your life.” This is why in one of my latest blogs I talk about the power of signs and omens, and how the Universe speaks to us–numbers are huge indicators of what is going on in our lives.

In laymen’s terms this number means for me, right now, that I am focused too much on the material, physical world and completely detached from my Higher Self.

I embrace the oncoming necessary internal reflection, chaos and hurricane force winds;

I embrace the need to dive deep;

I embrace getting lost in order to be found;

I embrace reconnecting with myself.

Suddenly, everything makes sense.

Happy swimming, folks.