RANTINGS OF A MAD WITCH: TikTok Witches & Gatekeeping

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I have not written in a while. I guess, like the rest of the world I am observing, and trying to figure out what is happening, what is being revealed, what is falling away, what is resisting imminent death.

Systems are crumbling, rebellions are rising, and a virus has held us hostage for months now.

While I have a list of topics to write about, political, mundane, and obviously Magickal, this is the one that seems most pressing today.

First let me say, loudly:
BLACK LIVES MATTER
ARREST BREONNA TAYLOR’S MURDERERS
AND
WEAR A MASK
If you have a problem with these messages, unfollow the blog because I have news for you:
WITCRAFT IS POLITICAL
Now, carrying on…

I really tried to stay out of this TikTok/Witchtok bullshit, but it’s literally everywhere, and people are asking my opinion; instead of replying to 50 messages, and risk getting myself wrapped up in a conversation *nervous introvert laugh*—I decided writing a blog was the best way to address my opinion, and hit on some points I don’t think folks are understanding or willing to see.

I have watched many videos, read article after article, consulted with folks on all sides and here are the facts as we know them.

A few days ago, a group of “baby Witches” on TikTok decided that they were going to “hex the Fae”.

Yes, you read that correctly.

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Okay, sidebar before we get into the juicy parts of this I gotta say:

Can we stop using the term Baby Witch? I know that it seems innocent enough, but not only is it patronizing as fuck, it’s being used as an insult and a way to further close off our community to new blood.

Why do new Witches bother established, practicing Witches so much?

You were not new before?

How about you just stay in your lane, and let the new Witches create theirs.

What is the issue?

Personally? I like waves being created, I mean, HELLO, have you read my work?

Also, we are not giving these young Adults and Adults enough credit.

These are not children we are speaking of, and in the case of children and Witchcraft, that is an entirely different topic.

“Baby Witches” are often given a free pass, and nah.

Nah.

Nope.

Not happening.

Discernment is key when dealing with all Magickal and Occult Traditions.

Whether you are 18, or 42, in most cases you are of sound mind and able to make educated decisions for yourself.

If you, as an adult, choose to make a poor decision, that is on you.

Those consequences are yours, and nobody else’s.

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Is it someone’s job to step in and say, “you might not want to do that?”

Nope.

  1. That’s gatekeeping.
  2. My number one rule in life: you can’t tell people about themselves.
  3. These are Adults.

Back to my point:

Obviously, hexing the Fae is ridiculous to even think about.

Why would you attack a group of Spirits for no reason? It doesn’t affect me, and so I am able to shrug it off, roll my eyes, and keep it moving.

But, seriously, do you not know who the Fae are and what they are capable of? Seelie, Unseelie or otherwise? Like….why?

We, as experienced Witches, must allow the new ones to fuck up and make mistakes.

We all have made mistakes, we still (hopefully) make mistakes because that is how we LEARN; that is how we continue to evolve on our path and as people.

Getting mad and making fun of these “TikTok Witches” is yet another form of gatekeeping.

I want to give Jason Miller a shoutout for his initial post that inspired me and gave me the courage to write this. His post stated:

“Dear TikTok Witches: Hex, the moon, the fae, or whatever the hell you want. Don’t let anyone police your practice. However it shakes out, and make no mistake some of it will end badly: learn from it.

I have no idea what you are doing or even trying to do, but am excited that young people are doing stuff that makes us roll our eyes. I think its dumb as heck, but that’s half that fun.”

There were rumors that these same Witches were going to hex the Moon and Sun as well.

I have since learned that it was initially started by a TikTok troll, see video below:

You hexed the Fae, the Moon, the Sun and angered Ancient Ones?

Weird flex, but okay.

I am not here to tell anyone how to practice, unless they are coming to me directly for advice and even then, there are so many variables that determine the kind of help they receive.

Here are two key points in all of my rambling that I really want to get out into the world:

Everyone and anyone CAN practice Magick, but often SHOULD is overlooked.

There is no wrong way to do a hex, but there is a right way.

Allow me to elaborate, as I can hear the collective gasp even before this is published.

I don’t care what kind of Witch you are, your initiations or titles (though I will always congratulate and applaud)—the fact remains, everyone and anyone CAN practice Magick.

I said what I said.

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There are a lot of Witches who do not agree with this statement, “Well I am a third generation Witch, High Priestess, Initiate and I am telling you that real Witches….”

Everyone gets tuned out as soon as they say, “real Witch”.

Nobody speaks for all Witches because WITCHES ARE SOVEREIGN BEINGS.

And all Witches are real Witches.

So, miss me with that bullshit.

What is this should I refer to, you ask?

Well folks, should is discernment.

Just because you can do something does not mean you should, or even have to.

There is no manual or advice that can truly be given regarding “should they practice” because that is a decision only the Practitioner can make, and if they hurt themselves then that is on them.

We cannot be both savior and gatekeeper.

Read it again, put it on a t-shirt, write it on your mirror.

We can’t be both.

My second point, you are probably thinking I am off my rocker, but I assure I am not.

There is no wrong way to hex.

I have seen some of the most non-Magickal folks EVERRR throw the nastiest Evil Eye.

I have seen non-Magick folk channel their emotion with enough power and intent that they threw Malefica towards another.

Hexes do not all look like ceremonial glitz, candle Magick, or blood and bone in the woods.

Hexes can be as simple as a look, a whisper in the wind, or a thought.

In fact, that’s often-what hexes were throughout history.

But you are not ready for that conversation.

Now, there is a right way to do a hex, and what I mean by this is: there is a formula for all Magickal workings to allow their outcomes to serve us best.

It is for this reason that many of us pay attention to not only the Moon but Astrological forecasts, days of the week and correspondences and the potential kick back of the Magick we are about to throw; a well thought out hex can produce little kick back if done properly. I am being vague on purpose as I believe Malefica to be a topic that deserves respect and can’t be summarized in a paragraph, or two.

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Allow new Witches to make mistakes, allow them to make us uncomfortable.

Roll your eyes and laugh it off!

We were young and dumb once too, and I know this may hit some of you hard but, we might be able to learn a thing or two from fresh eyes.

Witchcraft is a tradition, a path that has been walked by the marginalized, the downtrodden, the misfits, the outcasts since the beginning of time and we have the audacity to continue gatekeeping?

Witchcraft is also a tradition, a path of powerful individuals who are living and seeking their truth in a world who tells them not to and we have the audacity to box them in and kill their fire?

We are healers. We are teachers. We are students. We are Keepers of the Old Ways.

It is okay to spice Sacred up with a little modern fun, I promise.

Witchcraft can evolve, and should, as all things from nature must grow.

Blessed Are The Witches.

 

 

 

 

 

THE PSYCHOLOGY OF MAGICK: Jung & His Wretched Subjects

This article was written by The Nephilim Rising’s Astrologer, Emily O’Keeffe.


My first love is Psychology. I was Psych major in college, but even before that, I have always had a fascination with why people do the things they do.

I’ve always been an observer, I love to people watch, so it was just logical that the “whys” would happen at some point. I first heard about Jung in Psych 101 but it was such a general overview that I didn’t really think much of it.

Then later I took a class called Jung and Contemporary Mythology.

That’s when I fell down the rabbit hole.

If you don’t happen to be familiar with Jung, I’m sure you are familiar with many of his concepts.

The Collective Unconscious is the big one.

I will try to give a very basic definition but really, I could write a whole article just on just this.

The Collective Unconscious is the part of the unconscious mind which is derived from ancestral memory and experience and is common to all humankind. It is distinct from the individual unconscious that carries our own memories and experiences.

It is like a small pool (individual) that gets its water from the flow from a larger pool (collective), in other words our own individual unconscious is a smaller more individual version of the collective. It is all the same type of content, content that speaks in symbols.

These symbols of the Collective Unconscious are called Archetypes.

Our individual unconscious also contains these Archetypes, as well as our own personal symbols and we often put our own personal filter on these Archetypes or identify with a certain aspect of these Archetypes more than others based on our personal experiences of them.

Archetypes are another subject I could write a whole article on so I will try to give a brief explanation of them as well. They are universal symbols that every culture has. Each culture tends to have it’s own interpretation of these symbols but they do exist in every culture.
Jung was an analytical psychiatrist.

He was a student and friend of Freud until around 1912, when they had a philosophical falling out. A lot of it had to do with Jung’s study of what historian Otto Neugebauer referred to as the ‘wretched subjects’. They are the study of the liminal and numinous subjects of humanity. Subjects like religion, magic, the spiritual, and the esoteric.

Jung is the only one of the big name psychological philosophers that I know of, who acknowledged the validity of these subjects to the human experience.

Whether one believes in any of these subjects personally, one cannot deny that they are in fact a part of the human experience. If one is really honest with themselves, everyone on the planet has experienced something that they just can not explain.

Lots of people, most people actually, shrug these things off as figment of our imagination or childish or crazy.

For a scientist to acknowledge something of the numinous it was the kiss of death to any validity at all, because one can’t ‘prove it’. This is admittedly somewhat of an oversimplification but for the purposes of brevity, Jung was of the belief that it doesn’t necessarily need to be proven empirically or explained to be true. Once he started speaking of these things, he was labeled a mystic so a lot his work was discounted.

Even some of the most hardcore Jungians won’t really talk about his study of such subjects. It’s kind of an open secret that they tolerate but just don’t talk about.

Jung studied Gnosticism, alchemy, the tarot, and astrology, just to name a few.

In fact, astrology was so integral to his analytical process that he did natal charts for all his clients, also his colleagues. In Jung’s own statement, he began studying astrology while he was still working with Freud ‘in order to find a clue to the core of psychological truth’.

He used natal horoscopes to better understand the unconscious dynamics of his patients ‘in cases of difficult psychological diagnosis’.

Further, he recommended that any person training as a psychotherapist should learn astrology, and that astrology’s value is ‘obvious enough to the psychologist, since astrology represents the sum of all psychological knowledge of antiquity’.

Jung says that ‘the sun, moon, and planets were the exponents, so to speak, of certain psychological or psychical constituents of the human character; and this is why astrology can give more or less valid information about character…’

He says in a very lengthy letter to the French astrologer Barbault, ‘there are many instances of striking analogies between astrological constellations and psychological events… Astrology like the collective unconscious with which psychology is concerned, consists of symbolic configurations: the ‘planets’ are the gods, symbols of the powers of the unconscious…’

His biggest critique of astrologers is that they were too literal and not symbolic enough. Also involved in his theory was the quality of time.

He says, ‘The qualities of the different months of the year, in other words the zodiac, are really the projections of our unconscious knowledge of time and the qualities of time. It is as if there were profound knowledge in our unconscious, knowledge based upon unconscious experiences, that certain things originating at certain times of the year have such and such qualities’.
It has been my experience and the experience of many others that have studied this in depth, that the natal chart acts as map of you or if you prefer your soul. It’s your personality, your psychological complexes, and if you believe in past lives, which I do, where you’ve been and where you’re supposed to go in this life.

It’s sometimes disturbingly accurate, and even tells us things about ourselves that we would rather not admit, in other words our shadow sides.

It’s a map for our individuation.

For those that are not familiar with that term individuation, it is the integration of the conscious and the unconscious material of our psyches, two parts becoming one whole.

It is a lifelong process and cyclical.

We keep coming back to the same lessons until we learn them and integrate those parts of ourselves.

Or to put into alchemical terms turning lead into gold; or in the terms of the tarot its going from The Fool to The World.

It’s all the same premise just in different languages so to speak, but overall it is the language of symbols, the language of Archetypes and the Collective Unconscious.

References:
*Jung’s Collected Works
*C.G. Jung Letters Vol.1&2
*Jung’s The Vision Seminars
*Jung’s Modern Psychology

SERPENTINE WISDOM: Kundalini Awakening & Rising

***NOTE: This photo series is by Monika Ottehenning and I do not own the rights. This imagery fits beautifully.***


“When you succeed in awakening the Kundalini, so that it starts to move out of its mere potentiality, you necessarily start a world which is totally different from our world. It is the world of eternity.”

Carl Jung


A Kundalini Awakening happens to about 24% of the population and most of the time it is written off as a physical condition, instead of a spiritual condition that is manifesting in the physical.

The word Kundalini (Sanskrit) means ‘coiled like a snake’ which seems appropriate since it is the life force energy that sits at the base of the spine, bound, and awaits for the awakening.

Kundalini, being feminine itself, is often associated with Shakti, the feminine life force, or sexual energy.

An awakening can happen intentionally through Kundalini Yoga, or other various Yoga poses, but it can also be unintentional, say a back injury, a fall or extreme emotional distress. Some experts say that child birth, meditative practices, and celibacy may also contribute to the awakening. In my case it was a mixture of celibacy and yoga practices; when I had my spiritual awakening, I knew I needed to focus on myself and that meant I had to cut off sexual encounters; the best decision I have ever made.

Before my awakening I would not have shown such restraint.

Celibacy is a personal choice, and one that not many understand. I consider myself to be an extremely sexual, and sensual being and am often told it oozes from my Soul, but I don’t need to be actively engaging in sexual encounters with no depth to be considered sexual; just one of the many lessons my awakening has shown me.

In the past, I didn’t know my worth and I would freely give my sexual energy away.

When your Kundalini energy decides to awaken, it is a sudden pulsating surge that moves up the spine like a serpent and as it moves it blasts open your chakras, one by one.

Most people stay at one level of consciousness for long periods of time, what the Kundalini does is it rips open your third eye, and brings to light any emotions, or wounds you are hiding in the depths of your chakras.

Here is an excerpt from a great book on the topic called Psychotherapy and Spirit:

“As each chakra opens, new levels of consciousness are revealed. Since the consciousness of most people is fairly restricted, the opening of the chakras is accompanied by consciousness expansion and purification of the limitations or impurities that correspond to each chakra.” -Brant Cortright, Ph.D.

I can attest that it is probably the most painful experience one can have, because you are being attacked, for lack of a better word, on a spiritual, physical and emotional level but it is yourself who is the attacker.

Often times Spiritual folk want to make this awakening out to be a beautiful experience, and for some it might be, but the Serpent is notorious for it’s powerful and unforgiving transformative powers.

How do you know if you are experiencing an awakening?

You will usually feel a tingly, pressure from your tailbone up your spine and through the crown chakra; I am known to have blockages in between my shoulder blades, that is where my emotionally chaotic energy is stored when I have not meditated in a while.

Some of the physical symptoms of this awakening are: sensations of heat, tremors, involuntary laughing or crying, talking in tongues, nausea, diarrhea or constipation, rigidity or limpness, animal-like movements and sounds.

The Kundalini energy is a yogi philosophic form of Shatki. If you are not familiar with the term Shatki, it is the female principle of Divine energy, especially when personified as the supreme deity, Durga.

Since the Kundalini energy is feminine, even though both sexes carry it, it makes sense to refer to Kundalini as a form of Shatki.

A side effect that I have heard many women experiencing during this specific awakening is they become prone to yeast infections. The vagina, Sacral and Root Chakras are considered the Feminine Shatki centers in our body; when that is out of whack, it triggers all types of physical manifestations, even though it is a spiritual issue.

So, please listen to your body and treat it accordingly.

I am going to give some tips that have helped me get through this process, one that I still have good days and bad days with.

The number one thing that has helped me is my piece of Jet. There is a property within this specific crystal that when it is worn between the breasts (on a male or female) it takes the Kundalini energy and allows it to be released through the crown chakra. This can cause a slight light headed feeling, a flood of memories, or even tired feeling, but you must release the energy if you do not have time to sit and meditate to get control of it.

Secondly, meditation is paramount. While in your meditative state you must find your snake, in most cases you will see a field of snakes, but you must single yours out; allow the snake to come to you then you must take control of her, and allow her to coil her energy around your left hand. Let her know that you are in control, but pay respect to this Divine feminine energy while doing so.

Also, yoga or some kind of stretching is essential to the Kundalini process. As a beginner yogi I realize that Yoga is hard for many, but there are some poses that everyone can do to some degree that will benefit the release of built up energy in your spine. Such as, child’s pose, downward dog, and Kundalini Yoga itself (which is fairly simple as it focuses on stretch more so than strength, and resistance).

The next tip I suggest is to find a creative outlet, for me it’s my writing, and divination. I fell in love hard with divining because I had to focus my thoughts on something, anything, to get my mind off the pain.

Find something that challenges your mind so that you are not continuously checking back in on the pain.

The last tip I suggest is eating a healthy diet, and stay hydrated! I am all for water and tea; I keep it simple. Try to be aware of the processed foods you are eating, stay away from foods that are too fatty, try to eat as natural, and organic as you can.

Try adding in spices, too because your taste buds will change during this awakening.

Stay away from harmful substances during your awakening such as hard drugs and alcohol in large amounts.

Alcohol intake can increase the pain and makes you dehydrated, which makes the spinal pain worse. When the body is dehydrated the discs that connect your vertebrae become less flexible, and “dry”.

I am a Cannabis Advocate, btw.

I know from personal experience that this can truly be a devastating awakening, but the reward is like nothing else in this world.

My advice is to take care of self, listen to self, love self, honor self and the rest will work itself out.

You must be patient, do not rush the process.

Please do not go out of your way bending, and contorting to awaken this energy, either; if it is meant to happen to you, it will.

If you wake her up and she is not ready to be awakened, prepare for a wrath like no other.

The Kundalini rising is just another way that the Serpent gives us knowledge.

Embrace it.


Further study:

http://yogananda.com.au/pyr/pyr_kundalini1.html

PLUTO RETROGRADE: The Summer of our Discontent

Pluto went retrograde on April 25th. It will be retrograde until the 4th of October.

Welcome to the Summer of our Discontent.

Not gonna lie, since the big Saturn Pluto conjunction in January, it has felt a bit like all Hell has broken loose.

The world in is chaos right now.

If you are at all sensitive to energy, you’ve been feeling this energy intensely.

Now that Pluto has gone retrograde, it has turned its energy inward on us.

In other words, Pluto has gone in to the Underworld of our unconscious to do the things he does best, shadow work.

Flushing out the ghosts and demons in our psyche.

They hide there.

We think they are gone because out of sight out of mind, but really they are sleeping or biding their time and getting stronger in the dark.

Pluto finds them out, because he knows how they are and how they hide and he flushes them out. He gives you the chance to see them and transform them into power and self-knowledge. But so often they overwhelm us. We may get one or two before they take us down, but the ones we miss go back into their hiding places to wait again.

We all have our own personal demons, but we also share some universal ones.

One of those is Doubt.

Doubt is a fucking bastard.

You can’t ever kill it.

However, you can make it smaller and less likely to flow over in to all areas of your life.

One of my favorite stories about doubt is Orpheus and Eurydice.

It’s beautiful and sad, a classic tragic love story. Orpheus, the son of Apollo, was a musician. No human or beast could resist the beautiful music he played. He fell in love with Eurydice, a beautiful woman of charm and grace.

They marry and are very happily in love. Shortly after their marriage, Eurydice steps on a snake, is bitten, and dies instantly. Orpheus is inconsolable. He sings his grief so beautifully, that he is able move every being in this world and the next. His father Apollo urges him to speak to Hades and Persephone. He gives Orpheus protection so he can journey to the Underworld.

Once there, he speaks with Hades and Persephone in the court of the Underworld. He sings his song for them and brings Persephone to tears, and surprisingly Hades as well. They allow Eurydice to leave the Underworld with Orpheus.

But nothing worth having comes without a price.

Orpheus must lead and Eurydice must follow, and as long as they are both in the Underworld Orpheus must not turn back to look at her. If he does, she must stay in the Underworld and be lost to him forever.

If he is patient and trusts that she is following, he will have her by his side in the world again. He thinks no problem, he has faith in the Gods and he is a patient man. They start their way out of the Underworld. As they walked, Orpheus could not hear her footsteps behind him.

Doubt started to overtake him.

Would the Gods really would do what they said they would do?

They made it all the way to the edge of the Underworld and the doubt finally over took Orpheus.

He turned to see Eurydice being pulled back into the Underworld, lost to him forever.

Doubt is Caution’s toxic shadow side, which is why we can never really get rid of it.

However, if you let it get out of check, it spreads like an infection. It’s good to be cautious, but you still have to have some hope and some trust in yourself and others.

Fear is another one of those universal demons.

It’s related to Doubt and Caution, but it’s much worse.

It’s a shapeshifter.

It looks different to everyone and it knows exactly where it needs to hit us to completely paralyze us. One of Fear’s biggest weapons, is the lies it tells us. It uses lies that it hears from Doubt to manipulate and control us. It’s a toxic little mix down there in the dark.

One of my favorite episodes of Buffy the Vampire Slayer is called Fear Itself. It’s Halloween and everyone is going to a haunted house that ends in a party at a frat house. While decorating they decide to use a sigil from some random book because it looks cool and they paint it on the floor. Someone cuts themselves and blood drips on the sigil and of course starts the summoning of something. Its happens. Turns out they have begun to summon Gachnar the Fear Demon. First, he takes over the house and brings to life all the Halloween decorations and locking in all the guests and closing walls behind them. He turns the house into a maze and keeps yelling “Release me!!!” The more fear that everyone shows the stronger and louder he gets. He gets into everyone’s head and starts manifesting their greatest fears. Some of those fears are psychological, like abandonment and loneliness and being invisible to people that you love. They end up at the room where the sigil is and figure out what’s going on. When the Gachnar finally does manifest, he turns out to be about 6 inches tall and then when everyone sees its actual size it gets squished.

Pluto right now is flushing these demons and a bunch of ghosts attached to them, out in your psyche. They come at you like a swarm sometimes and it feels bigger than it really is because it disorients you.

It’s scary and sometimes its actual panic and those are very real feelings but are they true?

If you could freeze the swarm for a moment and see it for what it really is, is it really what you thought it was?

Can you put those ghosts to rest and let them go?

The more you put to rest, the less will come out in the swarm the next time.

Pretty soon it’s just little bouts of fear and doubt from time to time, just to clean out the cobwebs. The smaller it is the easier it is to handle. This whole process is not a good time. Like at all.

It’s necessary, but all transformations are painful and often there is a pretty heavy price. What you gain however, is personal growth and becoming more whole. These are the themes of Pluto retrograde. This Plutonian energy is happening to us personally and globally.

And, we are probably all going to be forced to sit with it, distraction free because of the global pandemic, until Pluto goes direct on October 4th.

This is shadow work.

The more we acknowledge and accept our shadow sides, the more they become conscious and we can integrate them into the whole of our personality where it becomes power and knowledge that we can better control.

This article was written by guest Author and The Nephilim Rising’s Astrologer, Emily O’Keeffe.

LESSONS IN MAGICK: Archetypes to Get You Through a Dark Night

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***NOTE: This piece is written by guest Author Chris Davis of Individualogist***

With all the ups and downs in life, it’s almost impossible to say that we’ll always be able to avoid bad luck. As such, there will always be some nights where things won’t go our way. No matter how hard we try to make things our way, the universe just doesn’t seem to cooperate.

Given such, it is normal for us to seek help. Instead of trying to solve things on our own, it is best to explore this option as it may provide an indispensable resource to us. By looking for the possible archetypes to help us, it becomes easier to get through these dark moments of our life.

Based on the 12 Jungian archetypes, we’ll point out the specific ones that could be of use. As these archetypes are present in each of us, we’ll be able to perfectly identify which ones suit this problem the best. Thus, in this article, we’ll be outlining some of the archetypes that can help you get through a dark night!

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The Caregiver

Perhaps the most significant of the archetypes mentioned, the Caregiver should always be your first choice. As they are ready to help at will, their indispensable value will allow you to feel that much-needed warmth and care.

With that, they are always ready whenever you need them because, for the Caregiver, this is their true purpose in life. Altruistic to their very core, the caregiver seeks nothing in return but perhaps a little appreciation. Thus, when they are there for you, make sure to show your appreciation. That alone is more than enough to make them smile and cherish the moment!

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The Innocent

As bearers of light, the Innocent are good at giving people hope when there’s nothing else to believe in. Of all the archetypes, they are the most optimistic as they believe in an ultimate good – the utopia where all of us are happy and comfortable.

With that, a dark night’s effect on us will often be effectively quelled by the Innocent. Given their powers of optimism, they will help you regain your lost confidence. On top of that, they will also repel your fear, as you will feel that you can achieve almost anything.

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The Hero

Of all the archetypes, the hero is the one who’s destined to face a lot of challenges. As their character becomes refined with these challenges, the more they become capable of helping those around them. Armed sheer willpower, the hero can become a symbol of protection and peace.

With their ability to save others from harm, the Hero archetype can also be a perfect companion for the night. Given their strength and courage, the troubles that you’re facing are something that they’re used to. As such, they can help you by showing exactly how to solve them.

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The Jester

Perhaps the funniest archetype, the Jester will make jokes and create humor for everyone. With their wittiness, they can creatively think about how to interpret a situation. As such, in the old times, most of them are hired to bring joy and laughter to kings and commoners alike.

In dealing with a dark night, the Jester excels at diverting your attention. While it may not seem much of a solution, it can somehow prevent you from worrying too much. As they are able to bring out that unique sense of self, the Jester provides excellent support.

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The Magician

As an archetype, the Magician is known to have the ability to access the transcendental. Compared to other archetypes, they are the closest to the divine source of energy, making it easier for them to harness their power.

With that, they certainly have the ability to turn the bleakest situations into brightest ones. Simply put, their powers can not only help you through a dark night but even get rid of it, just like how Gandalf was the bearer of light in LOTR.

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The Ruler

Pursuing power above everything else, the Ruler sees themselves as ultimate governors of their own state. Seeking to change the lives of others while maintaining their own legacy, the Ruler pursues power in order to wield it for such purpose.

With that, the Ruler most certainly has the ability to change things. Capable of protecting you from your external enemies, this archetype can mobilize his/her power in order to help you get through that dark night. Like a king or an emperor, the limits of what they can provide is almost boundless.

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The Sage

Getting through a dark night is not only about care or protection. More importantly, a dark night must be understood and comprehended in order for us to gain a better perspective on it. With that, nothing beats the Sage in providing you that much-needed knowledge.

As the classic saying goes, knowledge is power. With the help of the sage, you will gain that power which you can use to counter the situation. More importantly, this subtle understanding of the dark night will also allow you to prevent it from happening more often.

Given the 7 archetypes that were pointed out in this article, we hope to have contributed some valuable points to you. By paying attention to the archetype of those around you, you’ll be able to assess better if they’re fit to be with on a dark night.

As unforeseeable problems and conflicts may arise during these times, it is essential to know how each of these archetypes can help you get through things.


Author Biography: Chris is a spirituality and meditation enthusiast who writes for individualogist.com, a personality-testing resource based on Carl Jung’s study of the 12 Jungian archetypes. He is a firm believer of using self-discovery as a tool for uncovering one’s purpose and direction. Individualogist has guided thousands of its active members to achieve transformations and experience success in various aspects of their lives.

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A Holiday Shopping Guide for the Modern Mystic and Witch, Part 3 (2019)

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Since 2017 I have written Holiday Shopping Guides; these generally consist of Witch Owned Shops that I personally support.

I also would like to share a little of the Season’s Magick by possibly gifting these Shops with views, traffic and patronage.

As mentioned in previous Holiday posts, I know many people think Capitalism sucks—it does indeed fucking suck.

But, if we must Shop, or if we want to Shop, we should have access to sustainable, homemade, Witch-Owned, Heart Centered businesses to give our money to; that’s why I create these blogs.

Also, I must start picking the pieces of my life back up and find my groove again.

Here are this year’s Shops:

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Anointing Oil of Belial

The first Shop is Uprising Earth on Etsy. I know the Shop Owner personally, and he is simply brilliant. Uprising Earth offers high quality, sustainable Ritual Incense, Oils, and Tools; I own one of everything this Shop has to offer, so I know what I am talking about. I personally love the Belial products, and Belial loves them, too; I have noticed an increase in potency and energy since pairing my Magick with these offerings.

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Love Spell Soy Wax Melts

The second Shop is a new small business that was created in June of this year, and is run by my best friend, in fact. Roxy Rose Candle Co. offers high quality, paraben free, Soy candles, and wax melts to suit all your Magickal (and mundane) needs! I am a sucker for wax melts; I also can’t rave enough about her Roxy Rose Candle, and her 7-Day Candles! Be on the lookout too because Roxy Rose will be undergoing a bit of a face-lift as the business expands and narrows in on a market; offering goods not seen anywhere else.

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Florida Water

The third Shop is Three Cats and a Broom on Etsy, admittedly I discovered this Shop through Aidan Wachter. Sooo, simply put, Jen and her products are out of this world! Like, seriously. I initially ordered Florida Water at Aidan’s suggestion, and was gifted some of her MAGICKAL Herbal Salve. Have you ever seen ‘My Big Fat Greek Wedding’? If you have, you know the Father in the story uses Windex to heal *everything*–it’s hysterical. Well, this Salve is my Windex; I literally use it for everything. I have since bought a large jar of the Salve, Prosperity Water, Rue Water and, of course, more Florida Water. The thought, intent and talent that goes into these products are undeniable.

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Orgonite Disc for EMF Protection

The fourth Shop is 432Oneness on Etsy. For a long time, I wasn’t drawn to Orgonite; it felt New age-y to me, and I was like “well if you want the crystal’s properties why not just get the crystal?!” But then I was gifted a Chakra Orgonite Pyramid, and holy shit. As someone who is extremely sensitive to energy, of all kinds, I immediately felt it’s power, and I felt a grounded. I’m so sensitive my phone makes me sick if I hold it for longer than 10 minutes at a time, but then I found the Orgonite Discs offered by this Shop, and my phone’s energy is now contained. I have bought 3 discs myself; my Mom has bought 2, and I shared this Shop with a group I run on Fb—just about everyone there went and bought one. They really, really work. Plus, they also some beautiful Orgonite jewelry.

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Protection from the Evil Eye Spell Candle

The fifth Shop came to my attention because I was gifted a Spell candle; just having the candle in my room made my entire apartment smell like it, and it wasn’t even lit! In fact, I didn’t light it for a long time because I was so in love! The Shop is Shadow Wick Creations on Etsy. These are real deal, absolutely fucking glorious Ritual candles; they have inscriptions, gemstones, and all kinds of Magick INSIDE OF THEM. I want them all, tbh.

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Zambian Elestial Amethyst Lariat Necklace

The sixth and final Shop on my list is Creatrix Craft, another Etsy Shop. This one is actually Owned by a local friend of mine! Be on the lookout because she has some AMAZING Rune and Elestial Amethyst Necklaces to add to her Shop this week, and I have been swooning over them. This Shop offers wreaths, jewelry, and resin wearable art! She is also an otherworldly Artist, and you should for sure check out her IG to get more updates.

As I say every year, it doesn’t matter what you call this Holiday Season, or if you celebrate at all; let this guide be a reference for your Shopping needs all year round, if nothing else.

Blessed Are The Witches.

LESSONS IN MAGICK: INITIATIONS & WITCH BLOOD

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“We take spiritual initiation when we become conscious of the Divine within us, and thereby contact the Divine without us.”

Dion Fortune


This topic has been on my mind for a super long time, but I was taking a hiatus from writing and I wasn’t sure how to appropriately discuss this.

Here goes nothing.

I do not want to come off pretentious, elitist, or as a gatekeeper; I want to smash those ideologies, in fact.

I DO want to speak some personal truths and share observations in hopes that we as a community can grow, discussions can start, and we can change some of our negative patterns (both action and thought).

So, I might say things in here that are going to offend you, or annoy you, and make you roll your eyes, depending on your journey and path—I implore you to please read my points, and this piece in its entirety before forming an opinion.

There’s this large group within the greater Witch community who wants to see the Craft become accepted, mainstream (as far as not being considered completely taboo and Satanic) and open.

Then there is another group who wants the Craft to stay underground, to remain Occult (hidden) and let the muggles think what they want about us.

There is a final group forming of people who fall somewhere in between.

I have always been the latter.

The fear a lot of folks have with the Craft becoming mainstream is that it will lose its Mysticism, it will lose its Saredness, it will lose all that it means to be a Witch; to walk among the unseen and exist in Liminal Spaces.

What these folks fail to realize is that no matter how mainstream we become, there WILL ALWAYS be secrets to the Craft, there will always be things that can only be understood if they are truly experienced.

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The Witch must experience their Craft subjectively and, on their terms, in their time.

The Craft is a consciousness of its own, dare I say Spirit—far beyond an Egregore at this point.

The Craft will weed out those who are not worthy of all it has to teach, if they prove their Will is not true.

That is not for any person to judge; that is for the Craft, the Spirits, and the Ancestors to judge.

We are not gatekeepers, and I appreciate some of the sentiment behind this; the Craft is Sacred to me, too.

But it is not our job to be Keepers of this Gate.

The Craft keeps and tends to its own Gate.

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We each hold keys that we earned to access the Spirit World; my experience will be vastly different from yours, as will all the newer Witches coming up. We must make space for them, and allow them to earn their keys, too.

With all of this said, I want to discuss two specific aspects of gatekeeping that have become huge pet peeves of mine.

 

Myth: You must be initiated to be a Witch.
Fact: No, the fuck you do not.

The other day I was reading a thread of comments and it was kinda heated, and as I read one person was being ganged up on, so of course I clicked to read more and see what all the fuss was about.

The topic doesn’t matter, but what really bothered me was that people (more than 10) were hounding this person:

“Are you initiated? What titles do you hold? What Coven do you belong to? None? That’s what I thought.”

“You are not a real Witch if you have not been initiated, therefore your opinion doesn’t matter.”

And so on, and so on.

I was dumbfounded.

When did this become who we are?

I am not initiated by any group or person: THE GODS INITIATED ME.

Covens, Temples, Sects and Organizations have their place and for so many people they are a cornerstone of their practice.

But, for a lot of Witches, Solitary Practice is the only way, and, of course, there are a plethora of reasons as to why this might be.

Maybe they can’t practice in the open; maybe they live in a highly religious area; maybe they don’t play well with others; maybe they just prefer to Practice alone.

I think we should all read the works of those who came before us, listen when our Elders speak (that DOES NOT MEAN blindly follow, it just means listen as a form of respect) and accept Mentors if they cross our path or the opportunity presents itself and feels right.

However, I do not think initiation is the end goal, or at least, it doesn’t have to be.

Personally, your titles don’t mean shit to me or my Gods; we only care if your heart and your Will are true, and that you are living your authentic truth.

I am proud of every single friend of mine who has been initiated and holds titles, and props to building some amazing communities but please for the love of all that is holy and unholy, stop telling people that they must be initiated to be a Witch.

It simply isn’t true.

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Myth: Witch Blood makes you more powerful.
Fact: No. Just no.

When titles and initiations don’t make someone feel special enough, they must pull the Witch Blood card, and it makes me fucking cringe.

C R I N G E

If you don’t know what Witch Blood is, it means just what you think: a Hereditary Witch, or someone who was born and raised in the Craft or a specific Tradition.

I come from a line of Witches, Eastern Stars & Masons, and was raised by a Pagan Mother and Aunts in the Granny Tradition. My other Grandparents taught me Slavic Traditions.

None of that makes me any better than anyone else.

None of it.

We all have access to the same Power Source.

Read that again, let it burn, let it sink in, let it burn some more and accept it.

Your titles, secret books, pacts and oral traditions do not divide off a part of the Universal Source of Magick.

WE ALL HAVE ACCESS BECAUSE WE ARE ALL THE SOURCE.

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After all, we are what we come from.

I certainly believe that some folks are predisposed to excel in certain areas of the Craft, and there are *soooo* many factors that play a role in that.

I equally believe that we are all Magickal beings trying to remember who we are in a world that is forcing us into cages and prisons of definitions and divisions.

The Witch and Pagan communities are supposed to be the one place where the weirdos, the outcasts, the shunned, the misfits are welcome and are free to be whomever they want to be.

Let’s not take that from them because the Egos of a few have poisoned minds.

Be the cure.

Be the balm that combats the poison.

Be the voice that raises other voices.

Blessed Are The Witches.

My Favorite Witch Shops!

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I tried posting this on the page, but none of the links worked! It’s useless with broken links; stupid Fb policy.

So, I’m finding a loophole and posting on the blog.

I know this can be super annoying but I want to plug these Shops as a signal boost, so to speak.

I also know I am missing some, but tried to get in as many as I could think off the top of my head. 🖤

Many of us are Small Business Owners on top of being Writers/Bloggers/Public Figures.

In short, we have bills to pay.

I’d like to take this opportunity for all of you to plug your own Shops and/or your favorite Shops that are Witch friendly/owned as well!

Note: The Shops that my readership shouted out are at the bottom of this blog.

I’ve been really busy lately, and will get back to posting new content soon.

In Light, in Dark and in Shadows,

Jaclyn Cherie

https://www.etsy.com/shop/TheNephilimRising

Nuit Moore, The Scarlet Shakti

https://www.etsy.com/shop/shaktistudios/

The House of Twigs

https://queenmeb.com/

Sphere + Sundry

https://sphereandsundry.com/

Aidan Wachter Talismanic Jeweler

http://www.aidanwachter.com/store

Bane Folk aka Sarah Anne Lawless

https://banefolk.com/

Native Apothecary

https://www.nativeapothecary.net/

Chiquita Brujita

http://www.chiquitabrujita.com/tings

Troll Cunning Forge aka Marcus McCoy

https://www.etsy.com/shop/TrollcunningforgeUS

https://www.houseoforpheus.com/

Rosarium Blends

https://rosariumblends.com/

Nightshade Botanicals

https://www.etsy.com/shop/nightshadebotanicals

Owlkeyme Arts aka Laura Tempest Zakroff

https://www.lauratempestzakroff.com/shop.html

The Mexican Witch

https://www.themexicanwitch.com/

Mat Auryn – Author

http://matauryn.com/

Devin Hunter

https://www.etsy.com/shop/HouseofRue

Poisoner’s Apothecary

https://poisonersapothecary.storenvy.com/

Olde Ways

https://oldeways.bigcartel.com/products

Three Cats and a Broom

https://www.etsy.com/shop/threecatsandabroom/

Owned by Readers:

Three Moon Junction:

https://www.etsy.com/shop/ThreeMoonJunction

Willow Lilly Art:

https://www.etsy.com/shop/WillowLillyArt

All Wrapped Up:

https://www.facebook.com/AllWrappedUpCrystals/

The Country Witch’s Cottage:

https://www.facebook.com/thecountrywitchscottage/

RANTINGS OF A MAD WITCH: Gatekeepers Be Gone!

GK1I urge anyone reading this to read the piece in its entirety before commenting or passing judgment.

I write this knowing full well the backlash that I will face, but at this point it’s go hard or go home, and what I am about to say is going to be hard for many to swallow.

The inspiration for this blog is this delightful gatekeeping bullshit meme that has been making the rounds:

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I want to make a few points and cause a few waves.

I am the first person to admit that humor is a key to life, and the Craft.

We must be able to laugh at ourselves, otherwise, the world will laugh at our expense.

Does that make sense?

The more you learn to have a thick skin and laugh at your own mistakes and the fuckery of life, the more you will be able to handle the world’s criticism.

And, trust me, the world always something to say.

Especially when it comes to someone else’s opinion or way of life.

Ah, the fucking irony.

I don’t think the above meme is funny though, I think it only further divides us and makes our community look completely uninviting.

It was for me—uninviting, I mean.

The community DID NOT accept me, and I was forced to create my own space.

Covens can be intimidating to Witches that are inherently Solitary; not everyone wants to be part of a Coven, or group.

So, the division this meme creates is issue number one.

Again, I am in favor of making fun of ourselves but this is gatekeeping.

You can have that.

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The second thing is that this meme doesn’t consider accessibility.

This issue came up when the whole Sephora Witch Kit shit show went down, and people were up in arms.

Not everyone has access to buying things on the internet.

Maybe they don’t have a bank account yet, or they live with parents/family and can’t have packages sent to their house because their mail is opened (illegal or not, shit happens).

Then there are the people who are hearing the collective call to wake up, but they don’t quite know what that means yet, what it looks like, or how it will manifest.

A Sage bundle at Whole Foods, a crystal at TJ MAXX, or a tapestry at Pier 1 might help them on their journey—might trigger something in their memory.

The Witch IS the tool, I know that, many of you know that, but that knowing comes with time and practice.

Heck, even after all my years of practice, I still like using tools; ambiance, and focus and all.

Overharvesting of herbs, and ethical sourcing of minerals is a concern, and a valid one; not only the effects it has on Earth, but HOW the crystals are mined.

You would be surprised to hear that many of the big chain stores do ethically source their products; other’s do not.

You must research anything you buy, that’s your responsibility as a consumer regardless if we are talking Witch tools, or food you feed your family.

Obviously, in an ideal world we would be able to trust all sellers, but that simply isn’t the case.

Do your research.

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The next point is something that so many Magickians are missing.

The use of herbs/botanicals, gemstones, Sacred Geometry and the like are all forms of Low Magick—not everyone aspires to be a High Magickian, not everyone is about ceremonial Magick; some are about dirt and bone, blood and earth.

Some are all of these and more.

Magick, and the Craft—how we experience them and how we practice is so vast, so unique that it almost cannot be quantified or individualized.

We all have our own experiences, our own reality and we all found our way to this path some way, somehow.

I think the further we go into the Abyss, and the longer we walk our path, we forget how we started.

We forget where we started and how we stumbled.

I was raised with my Mother teaching me the Old Ways to wash out the Catholicism my Father was attempting to teach me.

But it wasn’t until I was 12 and watched The Craft that I willingly approached my Mom with real interest, and at that point was gifted my first Tarot Deck, and my whole world changed.

As they say, the rest is history.

Not everyone has supportive parents, and with the boom Witchcraft is experiencing in Hollywood, you can expect a lot of young Witches to start waking up.

Also, the collective is breeding rebels.

That’s another post entirely though.

These baby Witches could benefit from having tools accessible in big chain stores.

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Another point, someone commented on this meme saying that “having the girls who bullied, tormented and threatened to burn them alive in high school now call themselves Witches is a slap in the face”.

That is a valid point, and a valid wound.

High School fucking sucks.

It has sucked for everyone since the beginning of time.

And, yes, it is super irritating to see the people who taunted you for being authentic back then, claim to be a Witch now.

I get it.

Maybe we should approach with a bit of compassion though, instead of pain.

Maybe they grew as a person and they really are a Witch.

Maybe they are using the aesthetic as if it’s a trend.

That’s not for you to judge nor is it your weight to carry and it’s only a slap in the face if you give that hand power.

Witchcraft, and Spirituality in general have become trends, they are commodities for sale; they have been for decades now.

Read it again, and let it fucking burn because it DOES BURN.

It fucking sucks to see our Craft become watered down and commercialized to make it more palatable for the masses.

But, on the flip side, it’s empowering to see it become mainstream and hopefully, slowly, breakthrough the lies and stigmas told about us.

I see a new wave of Witches waking up, and I embrace them with open arms.

We all must start somewhere, and who cares where that starting point is?

When did we become so rigid about who we allow in our ranks?

Last time I checked Witchcraft is a personal practice.

And, an individual’s personal practice is not open to public interpretation, or prosecution.

Live and let live.

And for those who want to proclaim that their path is Sacred, so is mine.

I have put blood, sweat and tears into my Craft and it’s my lifeline; I don’t think it is something that is free for the taking, and that’s the beauty of the Craft.

Yes, people may find it buying Sage at Whole Foods, but the Craft itself, the Magick and egregore that Witchcraft carries, will weed out the real over the fake, you needn’t worry.

There will always be parts of the Craft that will remain hidden, and known only to those who truly walk the path of the Old Ways.

We cannot bring down this patriarchal system, these misogynistic religions unless we are unified, and we cannot be unified if we are distracted gossiping and judging each other and where we buy our tools.

We’re better than this.

Blessed Are the Witches.

MUSINGS OF A MODERN MYSTIC: Generational Trauma and the Outcast

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“After all, when a stone is dropped into a pond, the water continues quivering even after the stone has sunk to the bottom.”

Arthur Golden

I saw a meme recently that hit the deepest recesses of my being, and I have searched high and low and cannot seem to find it again; I know I didn’t dream it, either. I searched on FB, IG, Pinterest and Google, so if anyone knows what I am talking about, PLEASE, share it!

The meme said (loosely quoting, there was a great caption, too): “In order to heal generational trauma, you must begin by understanding the black sheep of the family; they are wounds embodied.” Note: Black sheep is one of those terms that has tones of subtle racism, and so I am choosing to use the word outcast instead.

It stopped me in my tracks.

I dropped my phone.

I sobbed.

I sobbed until no noise came out of my mouth.

I sobbed until my tears ran dry.

I sobbed until my Soul was tired.

I have always been the outcast; my family seems to believe that because they love me, that means they accept me, or that they understand me.

They hardly know me, so how can those other things be true?

I have no ill will towards my family, I love them, but I am the product of what happens when parents’ divorce and one of three children is moved away from *everyone*.

Separation happens.

I have written about my Father Wound before so many of you know what happened there, and how that affected me (how his absence and abandonment molded me, and my views of Men)—I plan to share an epiphany I had on the subject later in this blog.

Much of my family didn’t try to have a relationship with me, a child, and they blamed me, a child.

I type this and worry one may see and get offended.

But I don’t care.

Keep reading.

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I was 12 at the time, and quickly learned that my new home environment was abusive, and I remained there for 10 years; that is where a lot of my CPTSD comes from.

Having a connection with my family wasn’t at the forefront of my mind: surviving was.

Truths need to be brought to light, and hard truths even more so.

This is about more than the divorce, what happened after, and the dynamic of relationships within my family; this is about what it means to be the outcast.

I scoff, roll my eyes, and bite my tongue every time I see someone claim to be an outcast (really black sheep, but again, a tad racist) like it’s a badge of honor; same as people who claim to be “weirdos”.

This shit isn’t a trend.

Being an outcast is isolating, painful, lonely, and traumatic as fuck. As a child you wonder, why am I not good enough, what did I do wrong, why can’t I be normal? Am I not worthy of love?

And, as an adult not much changes, except maybe having the strength to draw hard lines in the sand, or the compassion to forgive and move forward; other times it’s cutting them off completely.

Being a weirdo usually means we’re bullied in our younger years (which may even transfer to adult life, too). It means not being accepted, being ostracized and ridiculed.

I had no choice in being weird, or an outcast—both are very much who I am, but they were not easy roles to play, or paths to walk; they still aren’t.

I am proud to be both but I won’t sit here and make either look pretty.

As far as my family goes, on one hand I want to be understood and accepted, on the other hand I know they won’t “get it” so why even bother?

I am loud, opinionated, wise, in tune, defiant (also respectful when I need to be).

I take up space, my presence is undeniably powerful (Jupiter on my Ascendant can be thanked for that, among other things).

I say what I mean and mean what I say; I don’t let racism, sexism, classism, or any “ism” happen in my presence, and that has made for some very interesting family gatherings.

Last Easter (a Holiday I don’t celebrate, but it coincides with my Grandfather’s birthday) I cleared the table when I said that my brother’s fiancé was wrong for wanting to get “a Native card” so that her daughter could get a discount on college tuition.

That’s the whitest, most privileged shit I ever heard.

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I had to call that out.

How can I sit here and tell all of you to burn in your truth if I won’t burn in mine?

I also called us (white people) colonizers, because we are; regardless if we (my family) have Native blood in us (we do) or not.

We are white passing; we have never been oppressed because of our Indigenous heritage, we don’t know what it’s like to live on a Rez in 2019 and not have running water, and electricity. We don’t face the addiction rates (a direct result of, you guessed it, Generational Trauma and colonization) that Indigenous people do, nor do we have to worry about our girls in the way Indigenous people do ; their girls and Women go missing and/or are killed in staggering numbers.

Don’t get me started on the sexual assault statistics. It’s mind-blowing.

For reference and education, click here.

So, no, you don’t get a “Native card” for higher education.

I was not about sit there in silence……in compliance, while some privileged shit went unchecked.

I checked it.

LOUDLY.

For clarification, I do have supportive, progressive and amazing family members whom I love more than anything in this world; they are my anchor to my humanity.

This leads me to the Mother Wound and Generational Trauma.

Generational Trauma is the idea that trauma is passed on through not only DNA but as a psychic imprint.

You can read more about it, here.

I faced my Father Wound with rage the likes of which can’t aptly be described.

I held onto so much fucking hate, and utter disdain for my sperm donor that I removed the concept of having a Father altogether.

I handled my Mother Wound with complete understanding, and compassion; anger at times, too, when she would project her pain onto me, but it didn’t linger because I took her pain on as my own, and together we sifted through it.

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As we began to heal our traumas and our bond, we noticed the Women in my family waking up, and they started to ride the frequency of their intuition; my one Aunt even has begun to build her first Altar.

She also buys all my books and supports me like no other. My cousins are into spirituality, Feminism, crystals, etc. and a few are even anti-religion like me (which makes me so proud!)

My Mom is an outcast, too so teaming up, and attacking our pain (most of which was experienced together and is why our bond is so strong) has allowed the Generational Wounds to show themselves and be healed.

We called on the Ancestors for help, as well, and filled any missing pieces by asking the elders.

My (step) Sister has recently come out as a Witch.

One of my Brother’s has completely opened himself up to the otherworld (he doesn’t quite know it yet, though) and he and his wife even birthed into creation a beautiful baby Witch who is now 4.

These awakenings brought me back to my Father Wound after I heard a story about what happened to him when he was a child. Apparently, he was caught playing with his Sister’s dolls and the punishment was severe.

Hell, my brothers played with my dolls with me, just like I played with their G.I Joe, matchbox cars and Wrestling figures.

Punished for playing with dolls?

But, back in the early 60’s it was unacceptable in his home (still is in some homes today) and he was forced to wear one of his sister’s dresses and stand out on the front lawn from morning until evening “to teach him a lesson”.

And, this is only one example of the expectations put on him as a child to be hyper-masculine, that he has carried all through his life.

The patriarchy hurts us all, and this is a prime example—toxic masculinity at its most vile.

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Last time I saw my Father, he was so….old and fragile.

I could see life had taken its toll on him, I could see the pain in his eyes—the pain he tries to cover so hard. I could sense the unhappiness that he hides with new shiny toys and home renovations. And, suddenly I didn’t feel hate anymore, I felt pity at first, then I felt nothing but compassion and empathy for him. I wanted to take him in my arms and swallow him up with Divine Mother energy.

After that encounter I sat down and readdressed the Father Wound; I know he will never be what I need or want him to be, he will never love me the way he should, the way I need, or want, but I understand him on a deeper level now, and for some reason that makes things, not okay, but easier for me to swallow.

The same goes for the rest of my family.

I am not excusing actions, but I am refusing to allow them to continue.

It ends with me.

There is something profound seeing the work you have done individually, then teamed up with your Crone Mother manifest into real healing for the ones you love most.

Trauma is complex, love is complex, family is complex.

Generational Trauma takes years to fully comprehend, but it can be understood, and to some degree overcome; healing can happen on some level, and cycles can be broken.

CYCLES CAN BE BROKEN.

CYCLES WILL BE BROKEN.

I had to stop running, face the truth, no matter how hard or ugly it was; then I Alchemized that shit and watched how things shifted.