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“Femininity is depicted as weakness, the sapping of strength, yet masculinity is so fragile that apparently even the slightest brush with the feminine destroys it.”
Gwen Sharp
This is one of those posts where I know no matter how I word this, or how many disclaimers I put in here along the way, it’s going to cause waves; people are going to be offended, take it wrong, and some will be left feeling uncomfortable. As I said just last week, I would not be who I am or true to myself if I did not make you, my readership, uncomfortable.
This topic has been floating around in my head since I started NR but I never knew how to word it, I never knew how to say this without coming off as one of those new age, man hating, Feminists.
I am a Feminist but I do not hate Men. I do not have to put down an entire gender to make my own look better; I do not have to hate on ALL Men to attempt and heal the wounds inflicted on me by one, or a few. That is totally not how healing happens; you cannot heal through hate.
Anyways, let me just get to the point of this post and I am going to be as blunt as I can:
It’s fucking hard being a Woman on the Left Hand Path.
Before reacting to my above statement, let me explain it first.
I post things to the page that resonate with me and what I am going through at the time. Since I am a Woman, and am starting to embrace my Feminine side after turning my back on her a few years ago because of my cancer, I post about the Divine Feminine, Sacred Sex, and Female Empowerment.
When my physical womb was removed, it felt like I lost my womb power and everything that made me a Woman; it has been a long, painful journey to realize that my womb power, that womb wisdom, is rooted in my Soul—no matter what happens to this physical shell.
I also post about these topics because this world is seriously lacking some Sisterhood.
What these posts have done, is they have brought out misogynists in droves.
I have had post after post trolled and I have been personally attacked because an article represented the Feminine without mention of the Masculine. It got to the point where I finally just started deleting and banning people without even bothering to engage; you just can’t reason with hate.
Why does my Femininity bother them so much? Why does my voice, my opinion and my fearlessness to speak my truth make them react so violently, so aggressively?
What is it about a Woman standing in her power that makes Men scared? (OBVIOUSLY, I am not talking about all Men; I am referring to the ones who troll the posts, etc. It’s sad that this must be said for clarification purposes; everyone is triggered by something these days. Shout out to the Awakened Masculine, btw.)
What kills me is some of the Men who troll have been following me for quite some time, and are not asleep in the consciousness department; they are not stupid by any means, either. Yet, they feel the need to constantly talk about “You need balance. You need balance. You need balance.” Blah. Blah. Blah.
You’re right, I do need balance!
What I don’t need to find that balance is a Man.
*GASP*
Did she just say that…?!?!
I did.
And, it’s true.
The Masculine lives inside of me, as the Feminine lives inside of them. Having a Man is about having a life partner, and (if it’s your thing) having someone to start a family with.
Please believe that balance can be found by the individual without “needing” anybody else.
I continue to get hit with, “Where are the Men posts?” and usually my reply is, “When I see posts about the Divine Masculine, I share them.”
But, when it happened two days ago, and I was hit with “you’re not understanding what I am trying to teach you” my response was quite different.
Why the fuck do I HAVE to represent the Masculine?
I don’t deny the Masculine: I love him, I respect him, I honor him, I cherish him.
We live in a world that is male dominated; yes, I am “one of those” who believes in the Patriarchy.
On top of living in a male dominated world, the Left Hand Path is a male dominated community.
Why can’t there be some Feminine energy up in here without it being a huge fucking problem?
I post sex positive articles, how to re-wild ourselves, and embracing the Dark Feminine and get shit for it…
From men…
All. The. Time.
I embrace my sexuality, and my inner whore. I embrace my inner virgin, too. I embrace all aspects of my being and I will not apologize for that. Is that not what being a Luciferian is about?
I will not apologize that my individuality bothers some people so much; I will not apologize for breaking barriers in a world that wishes to confine me to a cage full of labels and expectations.
I will not apologize for being true to who I am.
I am a beautiful, delicate, divinely feminine being, and I walk the Left Hand Path; that IS okay.
So, you stay in your lane, and I’ll stay in mine, being all Goddess like and shit.
I’m a man, and I’m a feminist. As I understand the term, feminism is about believing that men and women should be equal. A lot of people (including some women) think this is no longer necessary because men and women “are already equal,” but let’s just look at the wage gap that continues to exist right here in America. Why is it that a woman who works the exact same job as a man (and with all the same qualifications) continues to earn less money than the man does? This is still the case even in urban liberal areas, not just in rural conservative areas. In a truly emancipated society, this issue would no longer exist; yet it does, so feminism is clearly still necessary just for that reason alone (though there are many other reasons as well).
As someone who once identified as LHP for many years (and who eventually quit the scene after getting sick and tired of all the right-wing bullshit), I second your assessment that the LHP is very male-dominated. I also applaud your decision to speak out about this and to protect your blog from attackers. More women on the LHP need to make their thoughts known, and I hope you won’t choose to stop anytime soon.
Bottom line, we are all Human beings first, comprised of masculine and feminine energies…ying and yang…Balance, is difficult for those in denial. If one places blame on the other their fear is the transparency of ancestral conditioning.
Excellent article, as usual darling. We don’t need men to teach us, just accept us for who we are, which is exactly what they expect us to do. As asshole is an asshole, be they male or female. One of the things i love about you is NOT apologizing for who you are. It took me 50 years to get to that place in my life. Never compromise sis……..i won’t either.
Holy words!
Thank you for the work you do and this web site !
Well-said!